Introduction

hello everyone, my name is nicole and i'm 26 years old. i'll be 27 at the end of january and i want to start my new life off on the right foot. i've decided to start a blog (for the 50th time haha), record everything i eat daily, every exercise i do daily, and my mood swings to see where bad eating binges stem from. i'm severely dedicated to this cause because it is my life. it's not something that i can just abuse and expect it bounce right back. i've done the abuse and all it's gotten me is 200 plus pounds of excess fat and a lifetime of being miserable. i want to try the other side of life, the healthy side.

i'm tired of being myself. i hate smoking cigarettes, drinking constantly, stuffing my face whenever i feel any emotion. and i'm tired of seeing everyone else have little babies while i'm epically failing because i'm over 300 lbs. i am done with this life that i have created for myself.

i've already been on the mend with the help of my second family over at no time to weight (also on facebook), having my last cigarette on 12/6/09 and my last drink on 12/11/09. not to say that i'm done drinking altogether. i just want to cut wayyy back since i used to drink a 12 pack of twisted tea 4 or 5 times a week, every week. i want to drink occasionally on special days with certain people. i don't want to be an alcoholic like my father or grandfather (rip grandpa leslie), but i still want to be able to enjoy myself.

okay i'll do a little background information for you guys since i know you're just dyyyyying to know haha. i've literally tried every diet. atkins, south beach, mayo clinic, one day diet, nutrisystem, weight watchers, jenny craig, starving myself, bingeing, purgeing, slim fast, zone... and probably some others that i've forgotten because it's been a very longgg and trying road.

i stand about... 5'7" and weigh 319.0 lbs as of today. it's not my highest weight. oh no not by far. i've tipped the scales at a whopping 335 lbs not long ago, i'd say around halloweenish. and i never want to see that number again. and that's meeee!