when the scale refuses to move

so i don't think i'm doing anything wrong. i mean i know that calories aren't always accurate (in fact they almost never are) but i've been very careful with the food choices that i've been making. and the weight is not budging. it actually went up .8 of a pound yesterday! and today, it went down .8 - so here i am - hovering at 313.

i feel a difference though. i notice my work shirts are slightly looser, in the belly area and the arms. i have more energy - not afraid to climb the stairs anymore. and i'm constantly hungry every couple hours. so i know my metabolism is kicking in. but then why is the scale not moving??

hubby said today - "you're periods coming any day now". duhhhhhh!!!! of course!!! that has to be the reason!! i mean i've watched my calories, i've exercised, i've sweated... i know i put in the effort to watch the scale move.

now are you gonna ask how my husband knows this, of all people??? well we track my period because we're trying to get pregnant. so i know now that i'm retaining because of that. i also know that about a week or two after my period, i'm ovulating - so the hunger is gonna kick in BIIIIIIG TIME!! but i'll prepare myself with plenty of goood foods for that time.

now normally i would take this as a hint that my "dieting" isn't working so i'd quit. but i know it's working! i feel it in my body. i feel it in my mind! i just. don't. see it.

but i'm not giving up or caving in. like i said before - NO MORE EXCUSES.

this is my life. and i'm making it work.